Dock of the Bay

 


January 13,1998†


Dock of the Bay (S. Cropper)

When I first heard this song it was in the movie Top Gun with Tom Cruise. He went over to visit his instructor, played by Kelly McGillis, and they got to talking about when his father got killed during an air battle in Vietnam. This song was playing in the background softly, you could barely hear it. The song brought back memories of his mother who would ask him to play the song repeatedly. It took me awhile to figure out what exactly I liked about the song,however it has suddenly become very clear. On the night of the Thanksgiving dance, I had gotten back the original peace of mind. I lost it when Tommy died which I though Cathy would bring back, but she didn't, It wasn't even love or an emotion, I felt like my mind was at peace. My body worked the way I wanted it to, there was nothing to worry about. I was untouchable nothing bad happened that night. Something about the way Lauren and I were talking about certain things that triggered these thoughts all of a sudden. Then it occured to me, I'm waiting for the good times to pick me up and trying not to let the bad things bring me back down. It is an emotional wave that I'm trying to ride, however when it goes up, I think it's higher than it really is. I should have explained this to Lauren, but I didn't understand this myself, I was too busy trying to stay happy. The emotional waves were at a high and I wanted it to stay like that. I went overboard when I gave her the flowers. It wasn't meant to be an act of romance, it was suppose to make her happy so I could have something good to think about.3



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