Mattes's Musings by KC2GIK

We lost you a year ago but I think about you everyday. Thought about writing a l;ong post but really am too sad to even write now. A lot has happened in a year! Trying to focus more on the good than the bad. Hope I'm not disappointing you too much I know you're watching out for everyone! I miss y ou so much

Like a few times before I  wrote a status update on Facebook that I thought was worthy of a cross-post on the blog. The post originally went up on the  Cape May Live Facebook page, ok I posted it. Unfortunately it was one of the few times I left  the phone home. Although on second thought other people outside the wedding were snapping pics and they looked so out of place. I I was doing my usual patrol around Cape May and came across an outdoor wedding ceremony about to start at the Inn of Cape May. I saw the groom waiting with his groomsmen and the music started. Something told me to stop! So I pulled up on the sidewalk trying not to spy too much, but other people were stopping, so I figured it was ok. Sure enough a few seconds later I_ heard the wedding march start and saw the beaming bride walking down the aisle besides her proud dad, surrounded by a close group of loved ones. I watched as the bride and groom exchanged the most poignant vows I have ever heard. Here I ...

I am writing this for all the emails I get wanting me to use their services. This is a blanket disclaimer I will send out anytime I get offers for SEO or any other marketing offers./ This is also a test to see if they really want to help or just looking for money\ I especially am bargeting those companies who write me every few days saying, "We haven't heard back from you".   Thank you for your email... I registered "justinmattes.com" because I had lost another domain years earlier and I thought it would be  a great idea to have a customized email address. The original address did point to this blog for the longest time. T hen I decided to build a website to  display my writing and my license plate collection. I also hosted a few other projects off the website and occasionally used it as an "online storage". My writing especially because I intended to try to sell some of my poetry as well as list some of my articles published online and PDF copies of m...

Well like other stuff off my now defunct website, I decided to move my memorial tribute to Derick  Kessel to the blog. Every year I try to do something different, make sure the link to Bob Seger's "Still the Same" is updadted. There's not much more to say after seventeen years. I miss you Derick and feel I'm keeping my promise of never forgetting you. January 7, 2007 Dear Mr. & Mrs. Kessel, You might not recognize the return address on the outside of the envelope, but I knew Derick from Pascack Valley High School. While we weren't the closest of friends, the times we spent together are very special to me. It has been said people come in and out of our lives for a reason. I never quite could put my finger on how he came into my life unexpectedly, but I'm forever grateful he did. Derick was talking to Brian Ghem and some friends when I happened to just walk by and out of the corner of his mouth Derick mentioned something about my wheels , re...

 I emailed this to a select few people and figured it would make a good blog post. I want to make it public. I hope everyone has a safe, healthy and successful new year!!! Well we did  it another year! I have been waiting for it to end since the end of last January. I wasn't even sure I would write this note, then I remembered something I heard from  a high school friend a long time ago, "No matter what happens in your life good or bad, and you'll have more than your share of both, just keep writing".  Seems I have been doing a lot of that lately, especially poetry. For those who don't know we lost my mom, Mary at the end of January after a brief battle with cancer.. Devastation doesn't even begin to describe it. That set the tone for the rest of the year.  Mom was such a big part of a lot of lives, not only family, but friends she has known most of her life. She was loved and will be missed by so many. It's hard on all of us but we're helping each ot...

  We didn't put a tree up this year, Nor did we bother with any lights Decorating will bring sadness and tears Also I know you hate seeing dad and I fight You're always in our hearts Mom and in our minds as well I am really missing you a lot Mom, you know it, don't have to tell It's not the same without you Mom is all I can say I know you'll be smiling when we get together Christmas Day -J. Mattes 12/19/23

 Well since the website is still down I manage to write a poem about let's just call it "an online relationship". Which is why I will not say her name. Definitely had it's bumps, although she and I our finding our way. I'm a bit anxious to skip a couple of steps but not rush her too much. It's definitely a learning experience for the both of us but we're finding our way together which is what couples do. I have been reserved and my friends have warned me not to do anything I regret, like going too fast. Ok I admit we'll both a little comprehensive and that's because we're doing this together. It's also reignited some of my writing creativity. I wrote the poem below for her, of course she loved it. We'll see how this progresses but this is definitely a long time coming When you cry all I want to do is wipe your tears When you are scared all I want to rid you of fear When you laugh all it want to do is capture the sound' When you talk...